BALDY closed today. It has been for 4 years. So today is the first day I start writting about this 4 years. How i was working on BALDY. How BALDY was born.
Today. right before the performance, I was warming up my voice, and strected my body- and getting nervouse as usual. nature of me. starting warried what if….. what if I made mistakes,,,,, then voices started talking. What if….mispronance the words,,,, today we have the camera,,, it will be recorded,,, and this is the last production,,, there is no second chance,,,,, then another voice,,, but you know,,, we have done this show so many times, what do you worry….
I wanna look good.
for who?
for…..
see? no one care- it is no longer my story. it will be thier story. I just serve to the story. you know, telling the story simply. that is all I can do. I am not perfect, that is why I am perfect.
and ring ring ring! oh! That's it. it is ok not to be perfect. as long as I am honest, and not hiding. and being there with the story with the audience.
… I am perfect.
I am enough. --- that is actual line from BADLY. I am enough. and I cound not take it 4 years ago.
I repeat many times in BALDY, "am I enough?" I needed someone say to me "you are enough"
past years,,, I have been doing Yoga--, and one of the succecfull concept is feel enough to yourself, every day, every moment. but still-- you know, I wanna be better…
but today,,,, I naturally thought-- it is ok to not be perfect that is more perfect- felt like a blue sky. if we can recive who you are today, and let it go, we will creat newself…
I can not speak English perfectly. I know. and it is ok now. today. I do not need to hide it. I will try to tell the story from my heart. that is all matter. I serve the story. and people are there, want to hear the story, not my "Perfect" English. so "not perfect" is myself. then -- That is perfect. yay! I wanna embrace myself-- I am so not perfect!!! love it.
Today. right before the performance, I was warming up my voice, and strected my body- and getting nervouse as usual. nature of me. starting warried what if….. what if I made mistakes,,,,, then voices started talking. What if….mispronance the words,,,, today we have the camera,,, it will be recorded,,, and this is the last production,,, there is no second chance,,,,, then another voice,,, but you know,,, we have done this show so many times, what do you worry….
I wanna look good.
for who?
for…..
see? no one care- it is no longer my story. it will be thier story. I just serve to the story. you know, telling the story simply. that is all I can do. I am not perfect, that is why I am perfect.
and ring ring ring! oh! That's it. it is ok not to be perfect. as long as I am honest, and not hiding. and being there with the story with the audience.
… I am perfect.
I am enough. --- that is actual line from BADLY. I am enough. and I cound not take it 4 years ago.
I repeat many times in BALDY, "am I enough?" I needed someone say to me "you are enough"
past years,,, I have been doing Yoga--, and one of the succecfull concept is feel enough to yourself, every day, every moment. but still-- you know, I wanna be better…
but today,,,, I naturally thought-- it is ok to not be perfect that is more perfect- felt like a blue sky. if we can recive who you are today, and let it go, we will creat newself…
I can not speak English perfectly. I know. and it is ok now. today. I do not need to hide it. I will try to tell the story from my heart. that is all matter. I serve the story. and people are there, want to hear the story, not my "Perfect" English. so "not perfect" is myself. then -- That is perfect. yay! I wanna embrace myself-- I am so not perfect!!! love it.