found these from my schedule books. 17 years old (left) 19 years old (right). before I start loosing my hair (17) & the time I was losing my hair (19) looking back that time…. this girl dealt with so much stress, pressuer, and pressing down the passion for acting & Theatre. I had to lie what I wanted to do in my life. I could not say what I wanted. but I knew what I wanted. so I went to Tokyo. going to college (bussinees) in weekdays, going to acting school weekend (secretly) finally I started to learn acting, and at that same time, I was losing hair. I can see my hair is half gone at that time, so I had to tie up like that- so I can hide my bald part on the top of my head. I never made my hair shorter than my shoulders, it was so challening for me to take this-- at that time. but this accident did not stop me, distinguish my passion, rather made it stronger. and now I am in America. the place I wanted to come. training acting, doing performance, working with other theatre people, and falling love with Butoh. This accident and my passion and theatre education here made the solo show, BALDY. and the Baldy, Butoh, my collaborators created to the path to Butoh Medea. life is interesting. life is a teacher and a friend. if i did not have this, I would not meet the people I have now. friends, teachers, co-workers. the people I love. now, I finally feel more acceptance to this a bit. of course, I would love to recver my hair. but it is ok that I do not have hair. maybe never ever recover, but I have recieved preciouse gifts in life as a human, learned a lot. and will continue this path. This made me think... The things I feel challenging now, or feel defeated or make me depressed might be transform something else in future. I dont know yet. so, now. I just say good bye these girls in photos, I breath in a moment,and out, living a life a moment by a moment to the unknown future ahead me. thank you, 17 & 19 years old of me to remind me such an important thing!
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